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I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, and a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me, just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away," just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.

Prison Break

When I first heard about the show, Prison Break, I thought, WTF?. A whole show based on breaking out of prison? That won't last long. So, I never watched.
Earlier this year, I started watching on DVD and found myself in love with the show. This was no show about some dude taking 25 years to dig out of prison with a spoon. Don't get me wrong, I loved Shawshank Redemption. But that movie was about patience and a dream. Prison break was a show with a plan. It was intelligent and had strong personalities. The plot and dialogue were well written. I took pleasure in waiting to hear what crazy twisted use of words would come out the mouth of a murdering, one handed, southern pedophile named T-Bag. How many times in your life will you get to say that?
I just finished watching the final season on DVD. All around I would say another good story. I could have gone without the flashbacks that dominated the first half of the season though I can see they were used to show motivation. It wasn't my favorite season but I am glad they ended the show before it jumped the shark. The ending was sad but all good things must come to an end. Right?

They played this song in the final scene. I thought it fitting.


If you got dreams in your heart
Why don't you share them with me?
And if dreams don't come true
I'll make sure that
You're nightmares
Are through

If you got pain in your heart
Why don't you share it with me?
And we'll just wait and see
If it's half what it used to be

And lay it down slow
Lay it down free
Lay it down easy
But lay it on me

If you've got love in your heart
Why don't you keep it with mine?
I can't promise a miracle
But I'll always be trying

And lay it down slow
Lay it down free
Lay it down easy
But lay it on me

Lay it down easy
Lay it on me

Lay it down easy
But lay it on me

All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me...

And there ain't nothing like regret to remind you you're alive

I spent a year in the mouth of a whale
With a flame and a book of signs
You'll never know how hard I've failed
Trying to make up for lost time

Once I believed in things unseen
I was blinded by the dark
Out of the multitude
He came and broke my heart

When the dust in the field has flown
And the youngest of hearts has grown
And you doubt you will ever be free
Don't bail on me

River is wide and oh so deep
And it winds and winds around
I dream we're happy in my sleep
Floating down and down and down

And the tide rushes by where we stand
And the earth underneath turns to sand
And we're waiting for someone to see
Honey, Don't bail on me.

Tell ma I loved the man
Even though I turned and ran
Lovely and fine I could have been
Laying down in the palm of his hand
Staying down in the palm of his hand

In the morning you wait for the sun
And secretly hope it won't come
But time washes everyone clean
Don't bail on me

You and you Alone

isn't a shame
can't get in the game
even when the rules are bent
you give your turn away
and all you feel is blame

unless there's a mirror there to force
your weary eyes to close
so you don't have to bear
the life that you have chosen
and even through you tried not to hurt a soul
you've only saved the pain for you and you alone

isn't that the way
your sadness seems to stay
it takes ahold of every bit
of hope you might have saved
and all you feel is blame

unless there's a door that you can close
and rest against within
away from everything
just like a second skin

and even through you tried
not to hurt a soul
you've only saved the hate for you and you alone

aren't you the best you can be?
or are you someone like me?
who can't feel a thing
whose arms reach to hold
and saved all their love
for you and you alone

wasn't there a day
when you could safely say
that you were part of everything
without a role to play
now all you feel is blame

for everyone whose life you touched
to only run away
to hide there in the dark
and think that that's the way
to cope with what seems now
the only place you'll know
the burden and the pain
of you and you alone

and even through you try
not to hurt a soul
you've only saved the pain
for you and you alone

YOU AND YOU ALONE- BUTTERCUP

my favorite song at this moment in time

LOST-COLDPLAY


Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off